Crystal Balls and Tarot Cards

Happiness!

2011-05-07T17:52:00.001-07:00

So its been a while...as in nearly a year..and a shiiiiiit ton has happened... most of which is listed under a different blog, on a different email address. But the major updates are that I got a little sister in my sorority, who is quite a bit like me to the point it is hilarious. Aside from that I got a VP position with said sorority and my official duties start in the fall which is pretty cool. I did well in school this year and am really happy about that. The things I am most happy about however are my boyfriend, and some of the new friends I have made. I am in the midst of two and a half months of blissed out wonderful times and amazing sex. He is great and I am so glad to have met him and formed a relationship and being with him is everything I could have hoped for. Among the friends I have made one of the stand outs is a totally awesome absolutely fantastic pseudo little sister of my awesome boyfriend, who is my newest gal pal and is an awesome friend, we have bonded over messy margarita madness mondays (god that was a good night), and getting manicures and gel nails, and of course adoration for buff screen babes watching movies, and in general having a shit ton in common. Anyway that is about the latest and greatest with me for now.
Eirini
Gypsy

A Dilemma

2010-06-05T02:32:00.000-07:00

So it seems that no matter how much time passes, and what happens, there is one person I simply cannot get out of my head. After flings...after just over two years, he still lingers in my mind, doing the simplest things day to day, and then suddenly it reminds me of him, his touch, his kiss, his eyes, his smile, his trouble making grin, his voice, everything...I close my eyes and remember it all. No not all...it seems the only part I don't remember is the heartache, hurt, stupidity and hurt feelings all around. I don't understand why, it has been so long but I still can't seem to let go, and it is becoming harder and harder, I want to tell him, but how do you find the words after two years or more, after hurt feelings on both sides, and downright nasty comments to the other from both, how after all of that do you ask "Do you still think of me, how we were. I can't get you out of my head, at all." Do you say that, or do you bite your tongue, close your eyes and will the words back down your throat as you paste on a smile and laugh and try not to cry, only to sob your eyes out later on when everyone in the house is asleep and no one will ask what is wrong. I am so tired of the heartache I have both caused and received in that relationship...I find myself at a loss for what to do past that. Part of me wonders if I am a coward for not being able to tell him, but if I am so be it, because I do not have the first idea of how to tell him. Any comments would be helpful, though this will most likely be the last time I post an actual entry here, I shall be moving to a new blog, one that I will make to suit me as I am now rather than as I was.
~Gypsy

The way things work

2009-04-10T01:46:00.000-07:00

Well i got things sorted out with my dear sweet little girls. But now another issue has reared its ugly head. Over a year ago i had a fling with my best friend, he and i were closer than close. The time we went the farthest after he hurt my feelings, and i didnt think, i said things i shouldnt have to a mutual friend, who then told him everything i said. And that hurt him. Now i messaged him with an apology a few nights ago, and i get a second chance, and yes we have talked about what happend, and he didnt remember or realize what he had said to me and how it had made me feel. I think, and hope, that he relizes that i may have been wrong and done something pretty fucking bad and bitchy, i did do it for a reason...a stupid one, but it was there none the less. He thinks he doesnt deserve a girlfriend, cause hes an asshole, and yes, he is, but underneath he has a heart of gold, and as much as he tries to hide it and get rid of it, just talking to him for a little while, i know he still has that. But im afraid of the what if; what if we resolve things and we are friends again, that would be wonderful; what if we resolve things and things get rekindled...which on one hand i do miss him like that, but on the other i have a boyfriend who means the world to me and more and if i hurt him like that id die; what if we end up in a screaming match and get into a fist fight...also an option, and quite possible with our mutal temperments. i want the first what if, but i cant control fate, and im afraid of what might happen. But i also wonder, what would have happend if that one night i chose different, would we be together, would i be engaged to him? or would i be more hurt than i am not in university, possibly knocked up or something else that would equally screw my life to hell and back. This is all floating through my head after talking to him, and us getting a few things out of the way. But it has raised more questions in some areas....questions i dunno how to answer, or what will happen, and gods know i dont want to hurt either him or my boyfriend...things just got so complex with him...this is when i wish it was all like the happy ever afters they tell you when your a kid. Childhood being so cushy really doesnt prepare you for adult life and the way things turn out in it and go to shit so fast...anyway i have to go to bed before this turns even more nonsensical.
~Eirini
Gypsy

why

2009-03-26T17:59:00.000-07:00

i just lost not one but two of my dear sweet girls...my sweet little pets....they hate me now, its all my fault trying to prevent something from happening and now both of them could care less if i dropped dead....i cant do a thing about it to fix this....and gods how i hate myself for this, i hope someday they forgive me, but i doubt it, i know they wont read this, but i love you my sweet girls, always and forever be safe for me
~gypsy

not sure how to classify it

2009-03-07T21:50:00.000-08:00

okay we remeber my ex honey...well me and his mum were always really tight, so we still talk and are facebook friends etc. so new girlfriend ( who his mum doesnt actually know about) is uncomfy that i talk to his mum, and apparently him, though he cut all contact with me when he started dating her, and she told me to stay away from him and from his mum, exactly what gives here...i had hoped that with me and him our friendship of two years (to the day he asked me to not talk to him ever again) was stronger than some insecurity or some such thing, apparently not. though i have to say im past caring, after all i got a new boyfriend about a month ago, and he is hot and goth and buff and omg sexy...aaaand he asked me to keep it in mind that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me and very more than possibly marry me! OMFG!!!!!!!! im on cloud nine from that omg omg omg lol, so yeah ex honey and his new bimbo can kiss it and go be oblivious together not worth a thought to me so fuck it im going to go on being happy and me and have my life stress free of what fuckin ever is going on there, yay, lol, but omg the hotness is mine !!!!!my goth hotness, who i lusted over and finally got (then found out he was lusting after me another OMFG moment there) is mine mine mine and wants to marry me! holy shit!!!!! yes thank you i did something right!woot in other news i have to go to the docs on monday because being in a dorm full of people i got strep or some other fucking evil something and wooot...fuck i cant be sick i have projects duuuuuuue!!!!! feck oh well ill deal besides the hotness wants to marry me, its all good its all good!!!!!! yay okie bed time
Eirini
Gypsy

Girls Best Friend

2009-01-27T20:03:00.000-08:00

okay so me and a guy friend chatting, and he says diamonds are a girls best friend. i can see for some yes, but seriously generalizations arnt my thing, my best friend thats an inanimate object....my vibrator, i would so trade a diamond for a vibe and a pile of batteries. no jokes, and its not even the whole "sex addiction" some people talk about, no, its i do something that makes me feel good, endorphins and all that, seriously, best self help ever, cures bad days, honest. Some people will read this and freak out, but you know what, everyone needs to learn about their sexuality more, including some married couples, being comfortable with your sexuality is the most important thing, because without that, a piece of you is missing, and like it or not, it involves itself in almost every social aspect of your life wether you know it or not, an interesting thought no? yeah girls pushing 18,19,20 freak out over buying their first toy, loosen up, it helps, and it feels good, and its all about you, pleasing you, making you feel good, no one else...where else in life do you get that? lol yeah exactly, big fat nowhere....lol thats my thought for the day
Eirini
~Gypsy

cute

2009-01-20T20:45:00.001-08:00

adopt your own virtual pet!

Been A While

2009-01-19T14:38:00.000-08:00

Well its been a while since i updated, a long ass while lol, damn near a year ....yikes lol...but good news comes with my absence, i got into university, infact im sitting on my bed in my new dorm room right now as i write this, and quite frankly, for those who read this, seriously, if you get the chance to go to university or colledge, do it, trust me, its amazing, from the profs to the people you sit next to, it kicks some major ass... still short in the man department, come find meeeeee lol, but yeah not much is going on right now, just school work and meeting people fun fun
anyways
Eirini
~Gypsy

boorrrreeeed

2008-05-17T19:33:00.000-07:00

well i am...lol
lesse..me and my honey broke up..and not in the best way because he now has a new girl and they have been going out from just after he broke up with me....that one kinda sucks hey....oh well...however....i am dieeeeiiinnnnggg for male companionship T.T ;-; c'est la vie (though that dont mean i gotta like it) anyway im hoping my knight in tarnished armor will show up soon im getting irritated ASK FOR DIRECTIONS DAMN YOU!!!!! lol thats it for today im off to sit in the yard and watch the sunset

2008-03-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

okie so i took this lil quizzy thing after i found it on a friends myspace its so cute ^^

so yeah thats supposed to be my lil accompanyment ^^i likes

long time no update

2008-02-27T18:49:00.000-08:00

so the first month of school has been so unbelievably hectic its not even funny, however things are finally calming down YAY. however my stepdad is being A PAIN IN MY ASS!!!!!!!!!! ahem... yeah he wants an essay on why i want a phd....and what i want the phd in, um cuz i want a decent job where i get to be boss ....anyway im excited my one year anniversary is coming up with my amazing honey ^^ im so happy but yeah so thats all for my current update, keep on rockin' !
~Gypsy

woot friends ^^

2008-01-29T21:14:00.000-08:00

okie so two of my awesome friends who also happen to be my witchy friends now have blogs with me the lovely lexi: http://chakrasaurasandreiki.blogspot.com/ and the extrafantabulous Eli: http://eraser-shavings.blogspot.com/ yay i has friends on here in other news on the 31st its back to classes....may the gods save me....nah its not that bad i just dont want to lol, but thats me hehe anyway im tired beyond belief even if its way before my usual crash time...soooo im gonna go but have a kicking day and night all
~Gypsy

SWEETNESS!

2008-01-22T16:07:00.000-08:00

okie so i got to sleep in today and then went outside and did the usual work with my mom, so nothing new on part of that...went to school for the afternoon (joy...not) that was a colossal waste of time but on the up side i got a brand new ipod nano ^^ 8 gig OMG SQUEEE!!.... *ahem* lalala hehe but it is really cool the new ones are awesome ^^ its so lil ^^ and ive outfitted mine for my mom, an its got not even a 1/4 of my music on it lol, but i still need to update it with a few cds so its all good ^^ so yep that was today ^^ have a good one and keep rocking
~Gypsy

It Is Over Finally!

2008-01-21T16:00:00.000-08:00

YAY i am finally done high school math THANK YOU GODS !!!! hehe....what im glad to be done, i swear its legal torture... okie so after i finished the writen (which i think i did good on) me and my girlies went out for lunch to subway and my awesome friend dani bought for us, thank you girly...then went back helped my friend lexi with some questions about the whole pagan thing and showed her some stuff, so now we are going to be doing our thing together and helping eachother out, also my gorgeous friend eli who puts up with endless shit and needs a spa day....hmmm that is an idea mwahahahaha ;) and my boys nate and chris who wish me well so often and are just all around snuggle bugs, and my amazing man shawn whom i love with all my heart ^^.... so all in all a good day woot!

~Gypsy

woot blog ^^

2008-01-20T13:30:00.000-08:00

Hallo beautifuls, i gots me a blog now yay, i can update all my gorgeous wonderful friends, though word of warning this is gonna be a definite bitch blog on some days if im pissy or my mom is causing hell for me lol.... so yeah if you update you will hear all about how much i love my man and my best friends and how great they are ^^ so please watch the gypsy witch ^^ and enjoy and feel free to give your two cents